and you still forget the breeze

_{...based upon a true story...}



My eyes closed last night,
Light stopped reaching,
Finally.
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I couldn't handle my skin,
It hurt so bad
A heavy day it was.


Slowly, but recklessly
My mind started to fall in the abyss
A quiet, silent abyss.


And for some reason it felt good,
And for some reason I could breathe again
Somehow empty, but good.


And then, nothing
Nothing for a while
The clock was the only thing alive.


And suddenly and without anticipation
Something took over my unconscious mind
Colours, images, senses.


And he appeared
He talked
He was so real.
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He spoked and I laughed
I spoked and he listened
I saw him, he saw me.
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"I've always loved you" I thought to myself,
And somehow he listened, and said:
"There's something I have to do." My lips.


What?!
Since when?!
Shut up!


And he took my hand
And he took my heart
And we were finally one.


The wind blew so strong
I couldn't believe what happened
He made me feel so real.


He was holding my hand
And I noticed something
Something deadly, terrible.


His lies
His fake smiles
The lust of his kisses, never love.


Angst.
Despair.
I need to disappear.


It hurt so bad I felt it.
It was so strong it bruised me,
The fake realm I've fell into destroyed me.


Sadness spread over the pillow
Even Morpheus wants me to remember I erred.
Will this ever disappear?
Will this ever move on?
It is still there
Hunting me
Finding its way out,
Somehow killing me.
I need to let go,
Someone please help me let go.
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